Painful Obsessions: A Thought
We have all been there. We have all felt that. At School, College or a trip to the shopping mall. Its painful to be obsessed with something or someone. And its kind of a thing you cant really talk to someone about, especially when you are a grown-up college guy. People discard it altogether cuz its silly and petty to them but its you who knows how much you crave it. I have been through a fare share of obsessions since I was a teen. From pop sensation like Shakira to Apple devices in the recent days, and a few people sprinkled here and there.
Obsession is probably like a psychological addiction, you don't really need it to survive but your brain thinks the other way around. People to I-devices, you can live on your own but once they start showing up in your dreams you know you gotta get them. By hook or by crook. While addiction to objects can be harmless mostly as long as you are not selling your kidney for them, but obsession with people is devastating. Some may call it one sided love, or infatuation or lust, but as long as only one person is feeling it, theres a lot of tears involved. I have been obsessed with 3 people in my life and a million gadgets. While I hardly get any of the gadgets ever, every one of those people, I have found and then lost. You know what they say- Its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.
It was devastating all 3 of the times. If the first one wouldn't have happened I would probably been to a government college instead. For the second one, I lost the definition of a healthy friendship. And after the third one I'm kinda empty and really don't see any bright blissful life in future. Those 3 events were the worst I have felt so far, the lowest lows of my life yet. Now I just want to earn a lot of money, never get married and spend it all. Gadgets are the only thing that make me excited and joyous. And Apple's are the finest.
Talking about Iphones, I have taken up on a challenge to save enough and get one. Since they are pretty pricey. I'm cooking my own food, no splurging on stuffs I don't need like earlier, stopped going out etc etc, but I'm running out of patience. My dear friend says that the biggest obstacle in my way to success is my impatience. I know that, and I wish there was a permanent quality fix. Theres none so lets move forward. I have been saving for the last 2 or 3 months and probably need 1 or 2 more. I am also looking at all other options possible but none of them seem feasible and simple. I am trying to sell the old stuffs that I don't need anymore and also some of my friend's stuffs. Relying on the Olx 6 months challenge. Its not easy. Life becomes kinda hell when you put out your phone number on a website.
I guess I am doing okay with this obsession. I am working hard for it. Maybe it will turn out to be a good life lesson. It might teach me a thing or two about patience. Its like a kid who has been dreaming about his favourite lollipop from last several years. Life will be easier once I get it. Diverting my mind to things I have rather than things I will never have whatsoever, will be more helpful in being positive, attending the college and getting a degree. So fingers crossed. Once I do get it, will let you readers know for sure. Thank you for reading this boring thought of mine.
Obsession is probably like a psychological addiction, you don't really need it to survive but your brain thinks the other way around. People to I-devices, you can live on your own but once they start showing up in your dreams you know you gotta get them. By hook or by crook. While addiction to objects can be harmless mostly as long as you are not selling your kidney for them, but obsession with people is devastating. Some may call it one sided love, or infatuation or lust, but as long as only one person is feeling it, theres a lot of tears involved. I have been obsessed with 3 people in my life and a million gadgets. While I hardly get any of the gadgets ever, every one of those people, I have found and then lost. You know what they say- Its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.
It was devastating all 3 of the times. If the first one wouldn't have happened I would probably been to a government college instead. For the second one, I lost the definition of a healthy friendship. And after the third one I'm kinda empty and really don't see any bright blissful life in future. Those 3 events were the worst I have felt so far, the lowest lows of my life yet. Now I just want to earn a lot of money, never get married and spend it all. Gadgets are the only thing that make me excited and joyous. And Apple's are the finest.
Talking about Iphones, I have taken up on a challenge to save enough and get one. Since they are pretty pricey. I'm cooking my own food, no splurging on stuffs I don't need like earlier, stopped going out etc etc, but I'm running out of patience. My dear friend says that the biggest obstacle in my way to success is my impatience. I know that, and I wish there was a permanent quality fix. Theres none so lets move forward. I have been saving for the last 2 or 3 months and probably need 1 or 2 more. I am also looking at all other options possible but none of them seem feasible and simple. I am trying to sell the old stuffs that I don't need anymore and also some of my friend's stuffs. Relying on the Olx 6 months challenge. Its not easy. Life becomes kinda hell when you put out your phone number on a website.
I guess I am doing okay with this obsession. I am working hard for it. Maybe it will turn out to be a good life lesson. It might teach me a thing or two about patience. Its like a kid who has been dreaming about his favourite lollipop from last several years. Life will be easier once I get it. Diverting my mind to things I have rather than things I will never have whatsoever, will be more helpful in being positive, attending the college and getting a degree. So fingers crossed. Once I do get it, will let you readers know for sure. Thank you for reading this boring thought of mine.
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